My study of generational and ancestral trauma led to huge discoveries of where I came from and how to change the outcome.

No one comes out of life unscathed nor fully aware. We only see what we focus on not what really went down. We take what was intentionally good and look for every flaw and make assumptions from there.

Dysfunctional families also look sweet, nice and healthy on the outside but are harboring dark secrets that no one wants to acknowledge nor reveal. This the vicious cycle of destroying others while sabotaging their character. It's easy to blame someone or something on why one has the right to avoid responsibility for their own deep seeded issues and project them onto the one who is just trying to survive the original perpetrator of manipulative behavior. The one trying to survive suffers greatly at the hands of both the perpetrator and the messenger. The only way to heal from the extreme trauma caused is to do whatever it takes to rise above and go beyond the harm that they  inflicted on you.

Nothing infuriates the one sabotaging more than being confronted with the mirror reflecting their own behavior back at them. Especially if those deep, dark secrets shine brightly for others to see the real truth. 

The healer must be able to walk away and let go of absolutely everything that encapsulated their life to create a whole peaceful and compassionate love to self and those willing to heal and do the work. Self care, self love and self protection bring hope to a beautiful life. Yes, it's painful and can feel overwhelming. God holds us accountable and yet He also waits patiently and is with us through the heartache. Your true character will stand tall and stand the test of time. Don't give up on yourself...ever. Counseling, self awareness and accountability for your own part and healing is a gift you give to the brokenness inside of you 

The twists, lies, sabotage are on the ones who tried but failed. Let them go. They will never know how much hurt, pain and anguish almost killed you. Either they want counseling to better themselves and heal or they don't believe they did anything wrong. That's not up to you. You are not a savior. You are a human being with flaws and mistakes, but you are worth being loved, cherished and accepted just as you are now. No one can fix you especially if they can't see their own contribution to their own hurt, drama, and lies.

The you that you once were isn't the you that you are now. However that old persona of you they cling to is the illusion they lean on to justify the mistreatment and abuse they also took part in despite how hard you thought you tried. You did what you could with what you had and what you knew to be true at the time. They also were doing what they were knowledgeable and taught from generations before them. In order to heal their past, they have to do their own deep dive into why the see and believe what they do. This may be never happen. That's ok. You continue to take care of you and be real and love yourself and that little inner child voice that needs to hear they are truly loved and accepted. Once we do that, the healing is worth it.

Just keep being the beautiful mosaic soul you are. God gave you that soul and that heart that is beating for you. You are worth it. He thinks so too 

Love, blessings, healing.